Day 1 of the 2ww

I couldn't have asked for our transfer to have gone better yesterday. Although I thought my bladder was really full, it wasn't quite where they needed it to be, so I had to drink two big cups of water as fast as I could. (Thank goodness for straws!) Fortunately, the other fluids I'd had earlier finally started to kick in and we were only about 10 minutes behind schedule.

As planned, we put back two embryos. One was a grade 1 and the other a grade 1.5. (On a scale of 1-4, 1 being best.) Both were 8 cells and the 1.5 only had very slight fragmentation. The RE used the word "gorgeous" to describe the embryos, but as my hubby said, "I've heard that before." Unfortunately, perfect embryos does not always equal pregnancy and baby. 

This time was different, though. After the RE showed us the photo of the two embryos to put back, he came back with a sheet that showed the other 12 embryos still growing in the lab. Most were 6, 7, 8, 9, or 10 cells (8 is the norm for day 3) and many had 1.5 or 2 grades. One was a 4 cell, grade 3, and he said we will probably lose that one. Six days seems like a long time for embryos to culture in a lab, so I feel certain that we will not be able to freeze all of what is left. We only had one last time, so if we get 3-4 really good ones this time I'll be really pleased.

After the transfer, my RE said very sincerely that this has been our most perfect cycle. He said that he couldn't have asked for anything to have gone better. Keep your fingers crossed! Maybe his good feeling will really be it!

Hubby was so sweet after transfer. While I had to wait the designated 30 minutes before getting up, he was very entertaining and made me laugh a little. (I read in a study that laughter in the first 15 minutes after transfer leads to positive outcomes...who knows if it's really true or if the study group just got lucky, but it was nice to laugh and not be so serious.)

We went home and I spent the rest of the day with my feet up on the couch. I watched Bridesmaids, talked with my mom, and just relaxed. Hubby took care of me, too, which was really nice.

I'm back at work today. Fortunately, I have a desk job, so I'll be sitting most of the day. I cleared it with my RE yesterday. So now we just wait...the two week wait is the worst!!! Every little twinge or weird feeling in your abdomen makes you wonder. But, it can also be your ovaries going back to normal size. (Mine were sill pretty big yesterday.) This time I'm going to try really, really hard NOT to obsess about it all. I can do no more. It's all up to God.

If it is your will, dear Lord, please let one of these precious embryos implant and grow to be our healthy, living child. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Mrs. W