After you find out that you're pregnant, you might find yourself obsessing over every little tug, twinge, or feeling. For me, since I have miscarried before, I am analyze every little thing! Hubby and I want this pregnancy to be a healthy one so badly that I feel like I should always "feel something" to know everything is OK.
A "loss" or "lack" of symptoms could mean you have a pending miscarriage. This is what happened for me the first time. Of course, by the time the baby had died, I still had enough pregnancy hormone to make me feel like everything was fine. My bbs were not as sore, though, and I had stopped getting up during the night to use the bathroom. I should have known something was wrong. It was my first pregnancy, though, so I didn't know enough to know.
The second time around, I just started bleeding out of nowhere. I was at my youngest step-son's Little League game and when I got up to walk to the car after the game was over, I felt a gush of really warm fluid. I went straight to the bathroom and knew immediately that there was a problem. Of course, this was after hours, but one of the wonderful IVF nurses met me at the office to give me a progesterone shot to relax my uterus. By the next morning, ultrasound showed no heartbeat.
Each time our losses occurred between 6-8 weeks. I am exactly 5 weeks today, so we aren't at that point yet. I'm terrified for those weeks to come. We will have our first ultrasound on March 12. I'll be 6 weeks, 4 days. We've heard heartbeats before, so I pray that we will again. It will be the next 2 weeks until our 8 week ultrasound that will be the hardest. Please say a prayer that everything will be fine this time and we won't lose any more babies!
Right now I am still having some discomfort in my lower abdomen. (It kind of feels like my period will start, but not quite.) I definitely have to pee more often and my bbs are pretty sensitive.
Just for peace of mind, I'm going in tomorrow for another beta and to check my progesterone level. It will be tomorrow night before someone calls to let me know the level, so it might be a long afternoon.
I also interviewed for a different job yesterday and they said I should hear something tomorrow. Hopefully I will have two really good things to celebrate!
Dear Lord, please let our baby(ies) be healthy. You know how much Hubby and I want this pregnancy to work out. Please grant us this amazing blessing and let us hold our child(ren) in our arms later this year. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Mrs. W
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